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1 more day. can't afford to waste anymore time thinking about other stuff. please mind, stay focused and not let me be distracted.

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cried 3 times today. what next?
if i could hold it in before and not tell anyone, i can do it again.

time passes quickly.

going to miss my clan...alot. It hurts so bad:(

goodbyes make you think.
they make you realize what you've had and what you've taken for granted.

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why the f*** am i crying now, just right before os? arrghhhh! CONCENTRATE.

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Why does it hurt so much when I am with you? When I am not with you, it hurts too. And everything is coming to an end. Don't know whether it's good or bad... When you ask if I am okay, I will reply yes but I don't think you know that I am not. Someone said I would emerge as someone stronger after this. I hope I do.

3 days before os and I am thinking of this. What am I doing?
Don't want to ever let go.
Even if I were hurting badly inside, and you knew, I couldn't tell you why.

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When I think of leaving, it hurts so bad I just want to curl up and die. But leaving you will help me forget.


Things will get better in time.

Is it goodbye?

Time flies by me and I desperately grab at it. It slips out of my fingers, leaving me grasping at nothing.

Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do.