Is it goodbye?

Time flies by me and I desperately grab at it. It slips out of my fingers, leaving me grasping at nothing.

Suddenly breathing seems so hard to do.

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My head hurts. Ouch.











I can't seem to let you go, no matter what I do.
Gonna stop trying, it's pointless anyway.

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Have been feeling giddy and feel like puking since this morning. Just ate one panadol and going to sleep after lunch. Then wake up and study.


Why am I feeling like this?
Heck with all my feelings.
I hope what you said was not referring to me.

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Must be the stress from everything... Just had a meltdown infront of my mum... Screamed at her for no reason... My throat hurts... Had a breakdown in my room and just started crying... Someone help me... Free me fro
the pain I am feeling...

Picture Perfect memories

This post is dedicated to my clannies(Ariel, Thea, Cel, Ning, Anne, Ruth) :D wanna thank you guys for all the crazy, laughing-till-my-stomach-hurts-and-rolling-on-the-floor moments. Also thank you for all the moments where we will eat a huge amount of food together:) all the food that we have consumed could have fed so many families in Africa! Haha:) and also thank you for all the everyday,simple memories where we are together:) although our time left together is short, I will always treasure all the memories we had created:D LOVE YOU ALL!

Today just ended.

Today was my last official day with 4CO. Took lots of pictures to capture every last moment. Last time in class, last time being together as a class. Click. Click. The camera shutter clicked away, capturing every precious moment. Laughter, joy, tears, sadness all appeared in this class. I never did think this day would come so fast, perhaps it was in my subconscious, but I guess I was just living in denial. How did the time slip through my fingers so quickly? I know I will have to let go one day, but let me cling on to the memories for now.

Tonight

Was an emotionally draining night. First, someone asked me why I have been so emo for the past few weeks. She kept on probing till I broke down and told her. She was the only one who could unlock the part of me that I was trying so hard not to remember. I held on tight, willing myself not to give in but I couldn't take it and I broke down infront of her. Next, someone else said really really hurtful words to me and I just broke down again. Tried to block out her voice but it didn't work again. I must be pretty useless right, for you to say all that to me. Cried so many tears tonight until I can't cry anymore. I am so exhausted.