To you.

Hope you read this. Even if you don't, i just want to get it off my mind. i think something has changed and i know its my fault for not trying hard enough. I know the effort you have put in...so i guess you are not to blame. been trying to forget about you for the past few months but it was unsuccessful. and no matter hard hard i try, ok maybe it wasn't enough, but all the awkwardness and stupid things i have done just come back up and i will feel awkward and avoid. i know its wrong to do that...but i can't help it. and there is so little time left... something has changed... our friendship is not the same anymore...and i feel so useless because i know i just need to be normal but even that i can't do... and all i can say is I am sorry.